You sound so similar to me. I have some topics in mind - I did a lot of research, most of it to eliminate the scammers and find someone honest like Lisa, but I keep 2nd guessing myself and can't seem to get started. I thought this would be easy for me, but I find myself at loose ends and not able to begin. It feels almost the way - I guess - stage fright would feel.

I have had a long work life and just turned 64. My company [who I had worked for 16 yrs] laid me off [ along with a lot of other Director level people] back in April.

I was 64 in September.

I have always loved the internet and always had strong feelings about management and leadership. I have several other passions, but that is another post.

I feel like I am frozen, and can't seem to take the first step. Lisa, I think this place is wonderful, but I have read so many things and I am not putting one foot ahead of the other and just WALKING.

I find this so hard to understand, after having 1/2 dozen people report to me. I have always been better at getting things for OTHER people -- don't know if that is part of the problem. Here I am, involuntarily retired at 64, not daring to go back to the corporate world -- which I pretty much hate -- but needing to make some money. Oh - not what I was making before -- I'd be happy with 1/2 that (which I can't see how I can get).

I guess I might even be happy with 1/3 of that.

But here I am, a woman regularly accustomed to running a whole dept. and yet completely at odds for where to begin or how to start. That is why I'm here.